• 30th January
    2014
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‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly.

I love you because I know you’re always there. There to catch me when I fall. there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me. You know how I feel even when I can’t say it. You know I’m not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless. Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I would give my life up to be with you. And about all I hope that I will never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you. Now I hope you understand.

Dear you, Fikri Alfandy. I love you slightly beyond most my sweetheart.

‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly.

I love you because I know you’re always there. There to catch me when I fall. there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me. You know how I feel even when I can’t say it. You know I’m not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless. Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I would give my life up to be with you. And about all I hope that I will never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you. Now I hope you understand.

Dear you, Fikri Alfandy. I love you slightly beyond most my sweetheart.

  • 28th December
    2013
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I will never understand why. I’ll never understand why this world is so fucked up and barely anyone cares. I’ll never understand how pain never goes away.
I never want to be apart from you. I know I might not seem like I am, and that the thought of you leaving me makes me cry, but in all honesty, I just want you to be happy, but I never want to be apart from you.
I’ll never understand love or hate. I’ll never understand life.

  • 20th November
    2013
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13th!

The first time I saw you, my heart turned on fire. My body was filled, with passion and desire. I fell to the ground. In my mind I knew, that my love was bound. your eyes were so sparkling.
From that moment on, my only wish is that you are mine.
When I’m all alone, out in the night, you come along and find the light.
When I am sad, and life’s no fun, you are always there to be my sun.
In every moment, of my life.

I tell u I love you every night
What would love be without the silly fights
Without something to make it right
I’m glad the fights happened
Or we wouldn’t be as strong as we are now
We stay up all night talking
But what we talk about is nothing
But the nothings are everything

13 months, the thirteen most beautiful of my entire life I lived. Some times it might seem that these thirteen months went by so fast, but baby you know, every moment of these thirteen months that I spent with you, I lived a whole life time in just one moment dear, like I have spend millions of life times with you babyyy.
When you told me how you really felt,
I had difficulty trying to breathe…
My heart began to beat much faster,
but you promised me you wouldn’t leave…
Love you, my Fikri!

  • 12th November
    2013
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  • 4th November
    2013
  • 04

4/11/13 - 9:55 - Maybe..

I’ll never understand why it’s just so easy for you to walk away, to treat me like nothing, to just sit there staring blankly at the wall while I’m crying my eyes out, to yell things to me that nobody deserves to hear. I’ll never understand how these thing(s) could happened.

Maybe one day i would ask you, why you did that?
Maybe one day you would have a mcflurry. Maybe one day i would have one too.
Maybe one day you would realize that i loved you madly, maybe…
Maybe one day you would cry for me and then try for me.
Maybe one day you would realize that i loved you madly, maybe…
May the day never come.
May the day come soon.

  • 30th October
    2013
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30/10/13 - 9.30 PM

Pernah tau apa rasanya menahan diri dan mencoba untuk terus bersabar demi sesuatu yang sangat ingin dijaga dan tidak ingin dilepas?
Pernah tau apa rasanya ketika hal itu terjadi tapi kamu bahkan gak bisa cerita kesiapapun melainkan pada dirimu sendiri?
Pernah tau ketika hal itu terjadi yang bisa membantu menguatkanmu hanyalah doa?
Pernah tau apa rasanya ketika berdoa dengan perasaan yang campur aduk dan yang bisa sedikit melegakanmu hanyalah dengan meneteskan air mata yang membahasahi mukena dan kemudian kamu hanya bisa meringkuk diatas sajadahmu meminta kepadaNya untuk memberi kamu kekuatan dan kesabaran yang lebih?

"Good things come to those who wait. Allah has perfect timing, never early, never late. It takes a little patience and faith. But it’s worth to wait"
Semoga…InsyaAllah…

  • 29th September
    2013
  • 29

Selamat malam my-spoiled-man!

Hai sayang, lelah yah akan segala kegiatan mahasiswa baru berserta tugas-tugas dari dosen disemester pertama kuliah?
Masih belum bisa beradaptasi dengan lingkungan dan tekanan yang berbeda? Masih belum bisa jauh dari mama-papa? Masih susah kalau mesti sendiri disana? Bersihin kamar sendiri, nyari makan sendiri, kalau sakit harus ngurus diri sendiri?

Sayang, you have to keep your spirit up! Kamu pasti bisa menjalani semuanya! Kamu pasti bisa beradaptasi secepatnya! Kamu pasti bisa membagi waktu dengan sebaik-baiknya! Kamu pasti bisa, sayang!❤

Jangan banyak ngeluh,yah. Jalani saja apa yang harus kamu jalani saat ini untuk sesuatu dikemudian hari yang pasti akan bersinar dengan terang:-)

Tidak akan ada yang sia-sia dari sebuah pengorbanan yang luar biasa:-)

I wish I was there. Aku mau disana sama kamu, mendengar keluhan kamu, semangatin kamu, dan jagain kamu yang lagi sakit. But I couldn’t.

Walaupun aku enggak bersama kamu secara fisik, yang perlu kamu tau, hati aku akan selalu sama kamu, sayangku!

Cepat kembali menjadi Fikri-ku, cepat sembuh, dan semoga semangatnya kembali berkobar ya sayang:-)

Goodnight, sleep tight. Get well soon, dearest!

Mita loves you, Fikri!❤❤❤

  • 18th September
    2013
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You are a priority, am I an option?
Feel like you don’t even care

  • 2nd May
    2013
  • 02

Dear Fikri Alfandy,

Perhaps the letter isn’t the best way to go about this,but I really don’t know if I can face you after what I’ve done.Maybe that makes me a coward.I don’t know.I know that I don’t deserve anything from you,but I can only hope that you’ll read these words,knowing that I mean every one of them.

I am truly,truly sorry for what I did to you.I know you are hurting now,and I know that’s all because of me.I promised that I would never hurt you like this,and I did it anyway.I was supposed to be the one who would protect you from this sort of pain,I never intended to be the cause.

I don’t know if it’s ever possible for you to forgive me,but I hope that someday you can find a way to do so.I hope you know that I will do whatever it takes to prove to you that I can do better if you just give me a second chance.

I hope to hear from you soon.

Love,

Me.

  • 21st April
    2013
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